Enough
Faith to Fast?
By Faiza
Saleh Ambah |
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I
returned from a trip to the States to find my home city
transformed.
Multicolored
strings of lights blink from shopping malls next to large
"Ramadan Is Generous" signs. Restaurant stalls
are draped with the traditional red, green, white, and
black Bedouin textiles.
It feels
something like Christmas in America.
When I arrive at
my parents' house there are workers in the garden wrapping
tiny colored lights around the palm trees, and inside
they're painting the walls and arranging newly upholstered
furniture.
"What's
going on?" I ask my mother.
"I'm
welcoming Ramadan," she says. "This is for the
happiness that Ramadan brings."
"All this
for a month marked by hunger?" I ask.
"Not
hunger," she says, "Spirituality. God is never
as close to us as he is during Ramadan."
The month-long
Muslim holiday -- marked by all-day fasting -- starts
Friday, with the sighting of the new moon. It's the ninth
month of the Muslim lunar calendar, but actually predates
Islam.
Prior
to the prophet Muhammad, Ramadan was an Arabian
tradition. The pious devoted a period of each
year to a retreat of asceticism and prayer.
According to his biographers, the father of
Islam used to retreat every year during the
month of Ramadan to an empty cave two miles
north of Mecca. He brought minimal provisions
and devoted himself to meditation, forgetting
himself, food, and even the world around him. |

Prophet's
Mosque in Mecca.
(Photo by S. M. Amin/ARAMCO/PADIA)
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It was during
that month more than 1,400 years ago that the angel
Gabriel revealed to Muhammad the first verses of the
Muslim holy book the Koran. Fasting during Ramadan, the
third pillar of Islam, is seen as a form of self-denial
and restraint that strengthens the relationship with God.
It also helps people appreciate God's bounty and identify
with the poor and hungry. During the fast, Muslims must
abstain not only from food, drink, and sex, but also from
getting angry, swearing, gossiping, and bad thoughts. The
Sufis call it fasting from everything but the presence of
God.
Fasting
for Redemption
I'm always
surprised by the enthusiasm and delight with which my
family and others immerse themselves in this event. But
what's the point of being a perfect Muslim for just one
month out of the year?
"That's one
of the great things about Islam," says my sister
Taghreed, herself an occasional "sinner" just
back from two months in London. "It gives you several
chances to redeem yourself. And Ramadan is one of
them."
Complete the fast
and you emerge with not only a cleansed soul but also a
clean slate. "Hopefully you keep it that way,"
says Taghreed.
My
cellphone beeps almost hourly as more than a dozen
messages arrive from family and friends. One message
includes a crescent and star, the symbols of Islam:
"Ramadan is near, may you have a happy year."
From a friend in Riyadh, Saudi Arabia, I receive a picture
of a small devil with a pitchfork: "Don't get too
comfortable. It's only one month. I'll be back."
Another message
from a Tuesday-evening youth club offers me a chance to
feed a widow or orphan for the whole month of Ramadan for
300 riyals ($80). I think about it, but decide to pass.
I'd rather provide charity to make people's lives better,
not just to help them eat during Ramadan.
Another message
is a nude drawing of a very fat woman. "Watch out for
the fried dough balls and sambousak if you don't want to
look like this," it warns against some of the
traditional Ramadan dishes.
Iftar, or
the breaking fast, when it finally arrives each day after
the call to evening prayers, is lavish. Star-studded
Egyptian soap operas are scheduled one after the other for
prime-time Ramadan viewing, right after iftar, when
people are usually too full to move. And with an eye
toward the following day's deprivation, most people stay
up, snacking until dawn.
The propensity to
put on weight during Ramadan has been on my mind since I
first committed to writing a weekly journal about the
holiday. And I'm toying with the idea of fasting myself
for the first time.
To educate
myself, I've bought some books about Ramadan, including
two for children. While raised in a Saudi home, I've never
observed Ramadan nor been a devout Muslim.
I go to my sister
for advice. "It's not just about abstaining from food
and drink," Taghreed gently chides me.
"You deny
yourself the world daily, so that you get closer to God.
Fasting is a present you give to God. It's the only thing
He's asked you to do just for His sake. And you have to
inform God every evening of your intention to fast the
next day. And it has to be sincere."
Can
I Do This?
I'm not sure I
could fast during the day for one week let alone 30 days.
The idea scares me. If I'm going to do it, I want to do it
right -- and I don't want to fail.
Wednesday night I
look outside my window for the new moon. The palm trees in
the garden blink at me. The sky is a dark marble gray. For
Ramadan to be officially announced two people must see the
thin crescent moon signaling the new month and call the
office of the Grand Mufti, or chief cleric. I don't see
anything and apparently neither does anyone else. State
television announces Ramadan will start Friday.
Advice
from Ahmad and Izzy
My friend Ahmad,
who's not planning to celebrate Ramadan, is making his own
preparations. With the city's restaurants shuttered during
the day, he has bought a small refrigerator for his
bedroom and stocked it with Pepsi, Cheetos, potato chips,
and chocolate bars. Over coffee, he tells me why he's not
fasting. "I don't like to be commanded to do
something," he says. "As if God is some kind of
dictator like Saddam Hussein. Fasting should be voluntary.
Anyway, I sympathize with the poor and weak all year round
as it is. I don't need to identify with them during
Ramadan."
Fasting is
obligatory for everyone except those who are sick,
pregnant, very young, or on a journey. Muslims who can't
fast should feed a hungry person for a month.
"I'm not
hurting anyone and I don't have any bad intentions. In my
book I'm not committing any sin," he continues.
"Anyway, you have to really mean it or feel it for
your fast to be accepted. Right now that doesn't apply to
me."
I'm not sure if
it applies to me either.
I ask our Yemeni
driver Izzy, a very moderate Muslim, whether he's going to
fast. "Of course, I've never missed a day," he
says.
But, I object,
"I've seen you: you don't pray and you'll drink an
occasional beer."
"This is
different," he tells me. "One of the beautiful
things about Ramadan is that after the hardship of the
hours of hunger and deprivation, about half an hour before
the call to prayer you feel different, you feel at
peace."
"It's
probably just fatigue and relief," I say.
"No, you
look different, your skin glows, you feel cleansed, as if
your insides have been washed with shampoo. You feel at
one with everyone else in the city because they're all
like you. You're all fasting together and eating at the
same time. You speak less. You don't waste time saying
useless things. You feel light. Every time you feel hunger
pangs, you remember that you're obeying God's commands.
It's wonderful. I wish you could see what it feels like.
"Try it this
year," says Izzy. "Me and you, we'll fast
together."
I'm tempted but
am not sure I can go the distance - or muster the proper
intentions.
Later, I pull out
my cellphone and scroll through the messages for the one
from the Tuesday-evening youth club. "Just send us a
message and you can pay later," they had said. I
reply that I will sponsor a widow or orphan this month.
Just in case.
Reprinted with
permission.
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